it's beginning to sink in...

finally... i know where i am going.

after weeks of thought and prayer...
after going through the church interview...
after TURT...


this morning i finally had time to think. in bed. heh... just lay there thinking about what the future holds.

it's a scary thought.

i know it won't be easy. even now, as i prepare to leave for the US, i realise how hard this 'jet-setting' can be on relationships - not just with mel, but with my family, friends, supporters... on the one hand, i love the experiences and opportunities that such trips bring. on the other hand, i will miss them all dreadfully... =(

sigh...

also, the prospect of support raising as a way of life once i come on staff... that is also pretty daunting. although God has been repeatedly encouraging me in this area, by providing for my needs in such a timely manner. =) i know in my head that He will always provide me with what i need to do His work. and yet... the world's mindset of 'having reserves for the future' and 'saving for a rainy day' have also been ingrained in me. i hope that i will be able to save...

it's time to be in charge of my own money. haiz... but how?!?!

hee hee...


reminded of the words of a song:


i don't know about tomorrow

i just live from day to day

i don't worry bout the sunshine

for its clouds may turn to grey

i don't worry o'er the future

for i know what Jesus said

and today i'll walk beside Him

for He knows what is ahead


many things about tomorrow

i don't seem to understand

but i know who holds tomorrow

and i know who holds my hand!