sitting at benton's desk

i'm in the keynote office!!! =)

jen barger, a really really pretty young staff picked me up from the anderson's this morning. (she is REALLY gorgeous!) a really friendly and bubbly gal =)

the andersons had left at abt 630am. i saw them off, since i was up since 3am cos i couldn't sleep. (my motion sickness pill only knocked me out for 4 hours =( sigh...) it was quite sad to see them go. even though i know i'm gonna see them all in a couple of days... it'll just be different i guess.

the kids were sweet. hugs all round =) and topher let me ruffle his hair a bit. aw... waved the car as it left and then... just began sniffling... =.(... i guess it's just sad to say goodbyes. i hate goodbyes... sigh... but got over the sniffles soon and called me parents, before 'skype-ing' mel to chat.

it was kind of comforting to hear his voice, even though i don't generally like telephone conversations.

told him how yesterday evening i had gone through the anderson's photo albums. oh man... so inspiring! they are like scrapbook formats and so so cute! there's one for each kid, tracing his growth and experiences from birth till age 5! and their wedding album was so sweet too... young mike and lisa looked (and still look) so much in love... =)

anyway... so what really affected me as i looked thru the albums was seeing how God had really blessed this family, and brought mike and lisa together in the first place. i mean, seriously, i've been like a tap these past couple of weeks. ever since i made the decision to take this route (full-time), i've been bombarded with all sorts of frustrations, fears and stress.

a bit difficult to explain. but one key fear was that i really don't know what my future holds. it was like, until i had written and signed the application form, that the truth and weight of my decision finally began to sink in properly. i realised just how scary a step this is, and i struggled so much (and am still struggling) to trust God.

to trust that He really has a plan for my life that He will bring to pass.

to trust that He really wants the best for me - and that His 'best' IS best.

to trust that He will provide financially.

to trust that He will look after my family while i am staying in at GC these next 9 months.

to trust that He cares for my happiness, and that He is more than enough for me. even if mel and i dun work out.

to trust that He really wants me here. that i'm not just imagining things...

yup, so anyway... seeing how God has worked in the anderson's lives, through their photos and captions... really blessed me tremendously.

i tried to tell mike so this morning... but it was kinda hard cos i got all choked up cos they were also leaving... so dunno if he actually understood what i was saying =b sigh... i'm better at writing than talking i guess. hmmm...

ok, so back to this morning..

after the anderson's vroom-vroomed off, i packed my solitary suitcase and shoulder bag with much squashing of things... hee. managed to fit everything in (yay!) except bundles and the bottle of sth that pat wants me to bring back. but no fear, i have a bigger hand-carry in my suitcase to be used when flying back to singapore...

then i checked all the switches and lights and stuff... locked the doors... oh, and i had to go down to the basement to turn off the water supply. (mike showed me how last night) it was quite scary treading down the staircase... you know all those horrible shows where the bad guy waits for u at the top of the staircase when you want to come back up and shoves you down and locks the door in your face? yeah, well, i have a vivid imagination *grimace*

but thank God for a safe trip down and up =)

jen came about 945am. so before she came, i spent the half hour or so tinkling on the piano and singing worship songs to God. it was a good time.

now i'm sitting at benton's desk in the office. the office building is really cool. it's like a huge house and very homey and cosy, armchairs abound! and every desk has it's owner's personality! =) really cool and inspiring...

met a couple of people... dana, rob, ed pithy, joy ting, chris and jj - to name a few =) hee... i hope i dun forget all their names by tomorrow.

ok think this is qutie a long blog now... ciao...