coming to the end...

it's been a whirlwind two weeks with 5 performances at govt schools, 3 acappella rehearsals and 1 void rehearsal. quite exhausting...

thank God for bringing us all through it alive, sane and at peace with one another. heh... it's been awesome having the chance to really connect with the students. i dun really know how to describe it...

thw other day, grace asked me - "do you like performing?"

honestly? not really. i dun like having to prance around on stage. i dun find it natural to boogie and groove to the music. i'm not for big gestures.

but what really gets me up there - what makes me want to do all those things, and just do whatever it takes to make the message/show more captivating - is the desire to really bring God's love to these students. i feel for them - lost in a world of unreachable materialism, unmet expectations, conditional relationships, loss of self worth. i want to let them know that there is Someone who really really loves them unconditionally and who accepts them as they are.

that truth, for me, is pivotal in determining who i am and how i react to situations. i mean, more than God as Creator or God as all-powerful, what has really changed my life, and continues to change me, is knowing that i am UNCONDITIONALLY loved and accepted. that God loves me no matter what!

and that is why i really cherish this opportunity to be onstage, having that direct contact with the youths. being able to look into their eyes, into their hearts, and share with them this powerful message. i love that i get the chance to do that!.THAT really gets me excited! =)

so anyways, our season is coming to an end. tomorrow afternoon is the full-e@civil service college, 4pm (come on down if you can! refreshments served at 3pm) and after that GSP season 2005 is over.

kind of sad. kind of relieved - i can sleep more now, and focus on acappella stuff!

life's full of beginnings and endings - isn't it? =)