don't be afraid

this afternoon i had to explain a part of our band's program to a group of mixed ages, from early twenties to early sixties! i was pretty nervous, to say the least! and i was LATE... which didn't help... and honestly the response wasn't what i had expected and hoped for - they had lots of opinions and i found myself feeling increasingly helpless and desperate as they brought up their opinions in a 'i'm definitely right, you're not kind of way... in other words, i felt intimidated.

on my way home (1 hour bus ride) i had lots of time to ponder this whole event, and i know this is something i really need to get over. all my life, i've had this feeling of intimidation everytime i'm around adults - maybe the saying 'little children should be seen and not heard' has been drummed into my brain =b haha... but well, i'm not a child anymore, and while i believe in respecting our elders and being polite and gracious to everyone, that doesn't mean i should take things lying down or give in at the first sign of disagreement! and yet i do...

i know the root of all this is fear. fear that others will think bad of me, or that i will be perceived as a 'headstrong, stubborn mule'. or something to that effect. but then this verse came to mind as i was almost reaching home, and i can't believe i didn't think of it earlier!

"don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity." 1 Tim 4:12

now i just need to remember it at the right time =b heh. and get over my darn nerves!!

ok ok, be patient with yourself, dorothea. =)

Oohhhhhh, 7 more hours till mel gets home!!!! =D =D =D