the struggle within

i feel like the whole afternoon has been like one long struggle...

the morning was fine. we had STINT training, and today we spent the time starting on a Bible Studies package. (Observation, Interpretation, Application) it was really interesting for me. i mean, i've done inductive Bible study before, but this particular session was really fun and insightful, as to how to observe =) so i really liked the three hours we spent on Observation today. although we have a ton of 'homework' and reading materials to prepare for the session next week.

but somehow in the afternoon, i just felt so frustrated with EVERYTHING. i'm really not sure why... can't quite put my finger on it. i know part of it is work frustrations coming into play, and part of it is not being able to find a receipt for $200 that i need to claim... a big part of it is feeling kind of loose-ended (that's the only word i can think of to describe my feelings) about life in general.

oh, and at lunch, some of the STINTers were talking about who has decided to go on full-time, and who is leaving the ministry after the one year of stint, and i was like sitting there feeling way pressured and like, Hey, I have to make up my mind soon too!!! urghhh...

oh man...

anyway i'm glad that cell is cancelled tonight. cos i dun think i could concentrate much on the time if i went. looking forward to a nice dinner with my cell mates, and time to think about stuff on the bus ride home...