happiness is a choice - right?

sigh... the morning was pretty good, but then it kind of went downhill. i got frustrated over the same little things at work again. really feel like God wants me to learn something from this, but i dunno what. i guess, maybe it's to be more patient and loving.

i really hate that i sometimes feel so resentful towards people. and i feel like it's justified sometimes, but i know it never is - because who am i to condemn?

and yet, as i'm learning from "Boundaries", it's perfectly biblical to set boundaries and to say 'no' to certain things/people and 'yes' to others - to have that freedom to choose. but it's quite a paradigm shift for me, cos i've always been pretty compliant and found it hard to say 'no'. so maybe this an in-between period of tension as i sort myself out? hmmm...

i know i am changing, because i've actually taken action on my feelings. i am 'owning' them, by not trying to find an excuse for them or repressing them, but admitting honestly how i feel, to myself and others. this is a really new thing for me.

God, please help me to love others as You have loved me, yet to know the freedom that i have to own my life and to set boundaries that are biblical and responsible.

my colleague shared this during team prayer: happiness is a choice. you can choose to be happy, or you can let your worries eat away at you like a worm. one thing he suggested was having a time slot during the day, where you 'allow' yourself to worry. so throughout the day, when you feel a tinge of worry begin to creep in, you can tell yourself that you have time to think about it later and push it from your mind till then. and after your 'slot' of worrying, you can take time to commit these worries to God - all at one shot! =) pretty cool huh?

i think i should try that...