i don't like being alone

next week, my hubby is flying off to the US for a business trip for 2 whole weeks. that's the longest we've ever been apart since we got married, the second longest being a mere 6 days in comparison! i'm quite sad about it cos i'll miss him a lot and also a bit scared of being alone in the house, especially because we had an unprecendented two xiao qiangs appearing this month (we only had one in the previous 10 months!!)

today we bought the buggie chalk that's supposed to short circuit their nervous systems, and i conscientiously drew the lines round all the possible areas where bugs can get in. but still, there's no guarantee, and i'm finding it hard to trust that God will protect me and be merciful to keep the bugs away. for all i know, He wants to teach me to face them head on! sigh...

i've also planned my schedule for the next 2 weeks so that i won't have too many nights alone at home. like having dinners with my parents or meeting up with friends etc. i don't really know why i just don't like being alone. maybe it's because i'm gotten so used to having mel with me every day, that it feels lonely. i know some of my married friends would gladly welcome the solitude and 'freedom' of being alone for a while, but it's just not 'me'.

dear God, give me the faith to trust You to look after me and the house and mel for the next 2 weeks, and draw close to both of us. thank You =)