Thursday, March 31, 2005

blurrr

the day passed by in a blur...

had a really exhausting dance prac this morning... heh... wah... my thighs are aching man... =( sob sob

but it was also good to listen to the testimonies of a few of the new staff who are speaking during the graduation ceremony. very touching stories... even though it wasn't the real thing, i felt like tearing when i heard them share.

hmmm... after that went back to office for an afternoon filled with auditions (possible new stinter) and TURT handbook layout and new band meeting... arghhh... basically NO REST. *whine*

but oh well, in the midst of it, i'm still happy somehow. cos i like what i'm doing, and i know what it's for. that really helps. =)

anyway i was really pooped after that, so i was a really nice treat that mel was out of camp today (in reservist these few weeks) and he came and picked me up and we had a nice dinner and then he dropped me off at cell. =) heh... and looked at a couple of cool sunglasses on the way too... (but i DIDN'T BUY hor...)

cell group was good. i think everyone's opening up a lot more now. the danger of that though, is sometimes people speak quickly, and i'm afraid that feelings or egos are hurt. but at the same time, it's a growing process for all of us!

something i was reminded of today: salvation is only gotten by total reliance on God to save us; letting God be God. =)

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

things are heating up!

turt prep is heating up! yeah... beginning to feel the strain of it, and overwhelmed by all the details and nitty gritties... =b

please pray for strength to press on, and the faith to trust God to fulfil His plans through us, through me. pray that i would not shortchange God during this time, in my daily quiet time with Him, and that I would grow through all these 'stretchings' of my character.

i'm also in the midst of raising both monthly support, as well as support for my upcoming trips. however seem to have little energy or time to meet up with people. please pray for good time management, divine opportunities and that whether or not people support me, i would build friendships and that we would be a mutual encouragement to each other. =) thanks!

Monday, March 28, 2005

i cut my hair!

i wish i had a digital camera to take a photo of my new hairstyle and post it =b but no have....

anyway it's about shoulder length, layered, wispy ends, like those jap jap fashion style... =D i like!

haha... and it was good to catch up wif louis, my hairdresser again. he's really a good hairdresser! i highly recommend him to anyone who's interested. his shop is "hair matters" at adelphi (opposite funan). and his rates are really reasonable too! =) yup yup...

it was good to sit in a chair and RELAX for the whole evening as he snipped away... especially after the gruelling (but satisfying) dance practice this morning. my butt and thighs are aching like CRAZY!! =( haiz... but i think it'll be worth it =b

Sunday, March 27, 2005

the long weekend is over...

yes, it was good while it lasted =) three whole days away from turt handbook =b heh...

well it's been a long day. had breakfast with elaine and a long looong lunch with jamie... and then dance prac. i think we are getting the dance slowly but surely... =) so that's good... but long way to go. haiz...

came home in the drizzle feeling kinda miserable abt the weather... watched the dvd i rented - eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. it's really good. the acting is fantastic and so real... for once, i really like kate winslet! and jim carrey proved he can act seriously. and the camera angles were great too. but the best part was the unique way the story has of slowly unravelling string by string... like mixing the past, present and future... and yet understandable. wow. really impressed!

now... just feeling a bit troubled over some news i just heard. so shall go pray about it.

oh, btw, this is a really cool site that my friend told me about. for all you photo-enthusiasts out there =)

http://home.fujifilm.com/alaska/index.html

Saturday, March 26, 2005

different kinds of faith

rebekah.

a girl who grew into a woman through the pages of Genesis 24-26.

someone whose story i hadn't really chewed on... until today's bible study.

"i will go" were the words she said, when Abraham's servant asked her to leave immediately with him to a land she had never been to to marry a man she had never met and live a life she had never lived.

wow...

and yet, a few decades down the road, the same woman lacked the faith to trust God to fulfill the promise that He had given her when her twin sons were in her womb - that the elder would serve the younger. and so she took matters into her own hands (don't all women like to do that? =b heh)

same woman. different kinds of faith perhaps?

as i pondered on that, i realised that maybe there are different kinds of faith. to simplify matters... i see it as simply:

1. trusting God for the unseen

2. trusting God for the impossible

Abraham and Rebekah both trusted God for the unseen, venturing into a land they had never gone, now knowing what the future would hold for them. this kind of faith - i can say i am growing in. i see it developing in my life. not just irresponsible faith, but risky faith, that counts the cost that is seen, and trust God in what is unseen or uncertain.

but faith in the impossible? well, this kind of faith is harder for me to act out. when things aren't going my way, when times are tough, when people don't seem to change... i realised i have a lot less faith when it comes to trusting God to be in control of these 'impossible' situations, when nothing seems to be going as planned.

in forerunner, we have a saying - It's His show anyway! i see myself as having to grow in this area. to trust God to run the show His way on His terms, and that whatever results is not because He couldn't achieve the alternative, but because He has chosen to work things out that way...

how strong is your faith? in what areas so you need to grow in trusting God? just some food for thought... =)

Friday, March 25, 2005

loved anyway

before the world began

you were on His mind

and every tear you've cried

is precious in His eyes

because of His great love

He gave His only Son

everything was done so you would come


nothing you can do

could make Him love you more

and nothing that you've done

could make Him close the door

because of His great love

He gave His only Son

everything was done so you would come


come to the Father

though your gift is small

broken hearts, broken lives

He will take them all

the power of the Word

the power of His blood

everything was done so you would come



thought for this good friday: i am loved enough that Jesus paid the price even though i will continue to hurt Him, grieve Him, sin against Him, reject Him - as i go on in this life.

i am SO loved!

Thursday, March 24, 2005

of chocolate sauce, jazz music, hot cocoa and girl talk

had a blissful night last night at holland village =) discovered an amazing little shop that sells really funky (and way overpriced) home accessories and gifts. =) aw man... i really wanted to buy so many cutesy dinky stuffs... but must RESTRAIN... haha...

=b

also had an incredible chocolate fondue at haagen daez. my very first time eating there! yeah, i know i've lived in singapore my whole life... but somehow just never had the chance to eat there... normally head for gelare, swensons that kind... ooh, it was yummy!!! =D

it was the perfect end to a very tiring day. we had an evangelistic concert at AHS smack in the middle of the day, just after noon. so it was sweltering hot and sticky and icky setting up and tearing down... which resulted in a few of us having headaches after that... sigh...

but thank God everything went smoothly... and PTL for the 128 that accepted Christ! =D i was really amazed at how God worked in the hearts of these students despite the weather, the cramped hall, and our inadequacies. truly, all glory to Him!

anyway back to my happy night... before i went up home, sat in mel's car for a while and listened to some music together... and i really really really love jazz! i mean i've always loved that kind of music... but somehow recently just find myself loving it more and more... and wanna learn how to play jazz piano. anyone wants to teach me?!?! i'm SERIOUS! =/

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then today.. another very long day of work... ended off with a nice cuppa cocoa at starbucks wif joy and grace. had great time of girl talk and giggles and fun =D gals really understand gals in a way only gals can huh... =b luv u gals! (haha but i dun think u will read this...)

hee hee... so that was really really cool... and now i'm wide awake and can't sleep, so i shall stay up to chat online... and to wish pat a VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! =)

haha... and blessed easter everybody! may the good news touch you afresh this easter. may you be reminded of God's grace and love and forgiveness. the gift of His Son - especially for YOU!

here's a song that my choir sang last year... may it encourage you. by point of grace =)


He looked through temples of time
To see you right where you stand
He emptied all of himself
So he could reach out his hand
To give hope and meaning
To the wasted away
And you are one of the ones
That he was dying to save

(chorus)

He was dying to reach you
Trying to meet you
Where you need him most
You’ve been living in search of
The whole truth and real love
Your whole life through
You can open your heart
’cause he’s dying to reach you

He’s standing there at the door
You can hear him call you by name
He simply waits to forgive
All of the guilt and the shame
He gave up his own life
And he still bears the scars
He only wants to receive you
So come as you are

(chorus)

Oh, he has waited time and time before
You must be still and know that he is lord

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

march update

almost forgot!!! check out my march newsletter on the left =)

don't look back!

i had the day off in lieu of all the dance pracs that are going on...

woke up really really late - about 11am. for me, that's really really late, cos normally my body can't sleep past 9am. (which is useful when i had exams and lectures and stuff liddat in my school days) feel really rested =)

enjoyed a few hours of solitude and reflection. something i haven't had time or will to do for a while, cos i tend to be a workaholic - in the sense that i dun like 'hanging' or ill-done projects. i like to finish what i am doing and to finish it well.

anyways... i felt led to read 1 corinthians 13 again. something i think most people know - the famous chapter on love.

* * *

love is patient, love is kind.

it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud

it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.

it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

love never fails.

* * *

i feel that this time as i read it, God was really causing me to ask myself - do i love in that way? and showing me how self-centered my 'love' often is... most of what i learnt is kinda personal, so shan't share here... but i think it was a really refreshing yet humbling time for me =)

also did a bible study on lot's wife (Gen 18:26-19:16). and what really struck me is that the study helped me see her as a real person. a woman who

- was hospitable enough such that her husband knew he could invite people - strangers! - home anytime
- was probably terrified when she heard her husband telling the men that he would give his daughters in exchange for the strangers' safety
- had put a lot of time and effort and energy into building her home and making a life in her town, and found it a shock to be suddenly told to leave all that had become familiar behind

there's probably a lot more i learnt, but these are some of the main things i learnt abt her. and i was really impressed that here is a woman who probably was of great character and a good wife. and yet... for one mistake... she was turned into a pillar of salt.

it does seem somewhat unfair. but i guess God wanted to make His point so clear - don't look back!

don't regret. don't live with so many "what-ifs". don't tell God you trust Him and then live as though your past was not within His control as well. He has already assured us that we are secure in Him because of what Jesus has done for us on the cross, and that He will work all things for good.


"Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus... Only let us live up to what we have already attained." - Paul (Phil 3:13, 14, 16)

klutzy me

got to see the 7days guys again today! i miss them man... heh... fun to have supper with them too =)

before that i had to stay back for dance prac. some of us have been 'tasked' to put up an 'energetic and vibrant' item for next week's graduation ceremony (for new staff)... and today was our first prac.

thank God for helping me to remember the moves, although i'm so klutzy it's really hard to remember which foot and which hand when. heh... =b

anyways... it's a step out of my comfort zone for sure. all i can say is... as much as i don't enjoy it per se, i know that cheerfully submitting to this plan and giving my best is a worship to God. it's also very fun to watch the other's struggle along with me in getting the steps right =b hee hee

here we go!


One Way - Hillsongs

I lay my life down at your feet
You're the only one I need
I turn to you and you are always there

In troubled times its you I seek
I put you first thats all I need
I humble all I am, All to you

One way - Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for
One Way - Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for

You are always, always there
Every how and everywhere
Your grace abounds so deeply within me

You wil never ever change
Yesterday today the same
Forever till forever meets no end

One way - Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for
One Way - Jesus
You're the only one that I could live for

You are the way the truth and the life
We live by faith and not by sight ... for you
We're living all for you

Sunday, March 20, 2005

my God is faithful

i spent the day at wefc. the people there are cool =) really blessed to have gotten to know a few very friendly people who helped make me feel at home.

too tired now to write much in detail... but basically it was good. joined mel's cg for a discussion cum video on prayer, that really spoke to me, cos recently been feeling the lack of zeal to pray. what i was reminded of was that, even in those times, we can pray to God to give us the capacity and passion to pray in that way... it's a request in itself =)

also watched their choir rehearsing for a special item for good friday. it really brought a lump to my throat as i was reminded of my choir and the joy and frustrations of leading them and planning such items in the past. =( but it was good, too, to just sit there in the empty congregation seats, and be ministered to by the lyrics of the song "My God is Faithful".

indeed, God is faithful.

Saturday, March 19, 2005

special announcement =)

it was a great morning of meeting the TURTers and getting to know them a little bit better. =) they're a really fun and nice group of people, and i'm so excited about TURT now!!! =D

heh heh... although the prep and actual trip are gonna be really tiring... but may God give me joy and strength in all i do! =)

oh, and it's GREAT to have sam there too. i really miss last year's TURTers - they will always have a very special place in my life and heart. =) it's fun to have fun with sam again, and to talk, and to encourage one another on this project.

mmm... also got 'arrowed' accidentally during the ice-breaker time. we had to pick a slip of paper and each paper had something that we had to do or say... anyway... i innocently picked up my slip. HAH!

"Tell us whether you are single/attached/married."

oh Wow. i was speechless. (God, you have a great sense of humour!)

everyone was like, "aiya, we all know lah... "

well... my answer was... recent change of status =) heh.

think i shocked a few people... hee hee... and i kinda of felt awkward about it after that for a while... but then, i thought about it. and i'm REALLY glad that came out! i mean, somehow i feel it's good that the team knows my status, so there's not going to be any future misunderstandings or miscommunication in that arena. heh... and also, i had been wanting to tell them at some point, but didn't know how. so God 'helped' me i guess. heh...

yups... so...

I AM ATTACHED. *big smile*

eh heh heh

after thinking about it, i think... after the past three weeks, i'm more sure of my decision than before. =) and, rather than go around announcing it, i'll let those faithful friends and supporters of mine who read this blog know this way. heh... muahaha (many many thanks to those who knew about this already and have been good little mice)

i'm really really happy =) anyway, i think for now i shall not talk too much about him yeah. suffice to say he is one of the sweetest and kindest guys i know around, and we can talk. a lot. haha...

yet i learnt something the past week. no matter how great a guy or relationship is, NOTHING can 'complete' me as a person. NO ONE can know me as i'm fully known by One person only. Thank You Jesus, for completing me =)


there is a longing only You can fill

a raging tempest only You can still

my soul is thirsty Lord, to know You as i'm known

drink from the river that flows before Your throne


Take me deeper

Deeper in love with You

Jesus hold me close in Your embrace

Take me deeper

Deeper than I've ever been before

i ust want to love You more and more

how I long to be deeper in love


sunrise to sunrise, i will seek Your face

drawn by the Spirit to the of Your grace

my heart has found in You a hope that will abide

here in Your presence forever satisfied


Take me deeper

Deeper in love with You

Jesus hold me close in Your embrace

Take me deeper

Deeper than I've ever been before

i ust want to love You more and more

how I long to be deeper in love

Friday, March 18, 2005

mmmm...

hee hee... at mel's house now waiting for SUPPER time... yum yum... tissue prata i hope! =b

it's been a long week... i'm really looking forward to a good rest tonight... ARGHHHH... but i have to plan a worship for tomorrow!!! aw man... k soon soon...

Thursday, March 17, 2005

pics from elaine's bday party

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my wonderful cell-group

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the young and crazy ones!!! pretty flowerheads...

cookie cookie... me HUNGRRRYYY... =b

here are some pics from a fun time of baking with my friends sometime during the cny period. =D

thanks and kudos to debs for putting up this photo album! heh... you can link to it from the sidebar riiiiight at the bottom. (cookie baking)

just to whet your appetite, here are some tasty pics!

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da lovely cooks!

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me mixing the flour and butter and eggs together... heh... it's tiring work, but it tones the arms (or so i believe) and results in a nice smooth blob of batter. =b

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jammie cookies - cinnamon & choc chip itsy bitsy cook-lets spread with raspberry jam. mmmm...

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my masterpiece! you can't catch me, i'm the choc chip man! heh heh heh

Monday, March 14, 2005

my legs are aching... but i'm happy =)

mel and i walked up sheares bridge today. yes, i know, some of you are thinking... WHAT??? DOTZ WALK UP ANY BRIDGE??!!?!?

haha...

but i did! really... but ok lah, not that far, maybe about 30minutes up and down... but still =) i got some cool shots of the view and of gardenia bags along the way. (i thought they looked artistic lah... and like a remnant of the marathons run in ages past on the 'ancient' bridge) heh.

and i had a rum-me-raisin smoothie, which is really yummy. =D from some place in millenia walk. highly recommend it. they have high backed red armchairs that look cool too... although not that comfortable...

met some friends for lunch, then we watched Hitch, which is a really great romantic comedy! must go and see! will smith is hilarious and eva mendes is HOT! ha... she's not that pretty... but just got that aura about her lah... =b

then... got a cd that i hope will come in useful as i source for new music for the new band. it's this new gal called brittany dillon, and she's got a unique country-soul kind of sound. quite cool... =D look forward to listening to it. some of the lyrics are really meaningful, and kinda remind me of jewel's style. although not similar voice.

all in all, a wonderful, tiring day... and my thighs are kinda killing me now... arghhhh... haha... =) but anyways... back to work tomorrow =) yay!

Sunday, March 13, 2005

today is DE DAE...

happy 21ST BIRTHDAY elaine!!! =D

Saturday, March 12, 2005

feeling rested =)

after a really hectic and fruitful week of work... really enjoyed my day of rest.

i had a good time of personal bible study in the morning. today's session was on haggar. i'm doing this book on women of the Bible, and this is the third gal... heh =) it was really good, as it helped me to see the world as haggar must have seen it from her status and perspective, and better understand the feelings of shame, hurt, injustice and rejection that she must have felt...

it reminded me that, even at our lowest moments, God sees and God cares. and that He is right here with me, going through it. it might not mean He makes everything 'all-right' and wonderful, but He is with me through the storm. =)

* * *

had a really nice afternoon too with mel. shopping! =) and got a really pretty twinkly crystal cross pendent. i love it a lot! =) steered far away from the SALES signs and clothes stores... haha... so hard to be disciplined =b heh...

after that met justin, a pretty new friend, to tell him about FR and my ministry. yup yup, i'm really excited about getting more people on my team of supporters, because, as i was reminded recently, it's not just a matter of people giving their time (prayer) and money to me, but it's also building a team of friends who 'go with me' wherever i go! it's liike all of us are working hand in hand to bring God's love to the world, but by different ways. in a way, they are 'going through me' - what a great partnership! =)

really appreciate those who support me more and more. thanks guys and gals!

* * *

tomorrow is elaine's TWENTY-FIRST birthday! wow... am i old... =( but happy birthday elaine!! *hugz* i'm quite excited about her bday party, which our cell group is organising. heh heh... hope all goes well... =)

Thursday, March 10, 2005

so blessed =)

today we had a session on 'Pitfalls of Leadership". it was a really good reminder for me. not exactly based on what was shared, but thoughts triggered by the main points. i thank God for giving me time to reflect on it and ponder my next steps...

in a nutshell, things i was reminded of:

1. i am responsible for my own spiritual growth. (1 corinthians 13:11-12)

- thank God for the myriad of experiences and growing pains i have gone thru the past year. as i look back, i marvel at His perfect timing and co-ordination of events in my life!

- but i see that my knowledge of God's word is not growing as much as i would like it to. sure my qt is regular, and i enjoy cell prep, but still... i need to have more intentional personal bible study time. so that's what i'm aiming for...

2. intentional and pro-active support raising is part of this journey as a staff

- i've been blessed with healthy support thus far.

- two trips on my plate. and when i switch to 'staff' status, there will be a higher monthly support to raise. God reminded me that i am not being a good steward of my free time if i do not actively seek to raise more co-labourers for His harvest-field.

- while rest time and relaxing is good and necessary, i need to commit to more regular and consistent seeking of new supporters and build my relationships with existing ones.

- thank you everyone who has and is supporting me through prayer and finances! i am so SO blessed. =)

3. God is VERY interested in me

- looking back on the road i've travelled... He is gently leading me to where he wants me to be character-wise. while i am WAAAAY far from perfect, as the common analogy goes - i am in the process of being refined, like gold in a goldsmith's hand; like clay in the Potter's hand.

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

change of plans...

didn't manage to meet my friends yesterday night =( our interview lasted way longer than expected, and started late too, cos the guy was late. but overall, i'm glad i stayed back, cos he's got a lot of talent, and it was a good time of us getting to know him.

also had a nice supper after that =). which kind of made up for missing out on the nice magic wok dinner planned with my friends =(.

today i learnt that i have learnt a lot over the past year. about the kind of people i am attracted to and the kind of people that i need and the kind of people that i enjoy and the kind of people that frustrate me. haha...

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

busyness... can be good

woah, what a busy day again! haha... but yet it's been a good day too, cos i feel it was pretty fruitful for me. got a lot done and decided. heh... =) yay!

there's a ton of stuff on my plate, but i'm not complaining, because i thrive on 'busyness' in a sense. like i like having many things to do. i don't like having time on my hands with nothing to do. (of course if i have a retreat, that's considered 'something' to do...) so i'm glad that i have been entrusted with all these things. and i feel like i'm learning a lot along the way - on working with different people and in different kinds of situations...

really excited about TURT! =) yup. so excited, in fact, that i've already begun work on my march newsletter =b haha... feels like i just posted my february newsletter not too long ago eh... =b hee hee...anyway, i almost finished it, so will probably post it up next week!

right now... waiting in office for an interviewee to arrive. we're recruiting for our new band! =D anyways... after that, looking forward to catching up with my uni friends at magic wok@capitol. haha... but not too hungry, cos i was greedy half an hour ago and snuck out to polar to grab a chicken pie =b heh heh. polar chicken pies sure are yummy. *slurp*

Monday, March 07, 2005

i will trust in Him

O my soul!

Do you not know? Have you not heard?

It's been told from the beginning - The Lord your God is on your side!

O my soul, don't be afraid; hope in the Lord.

By His righteousness and power He will strengthen; He will guide.

And I will soar on wings like eagles, held by the hand of God.

I will run and not grow tired when on His name I call

For the Lord is never weary - His ways are beyond my thoughts!

I will trust in Him with all my heart...

Sunday, March 06, 2005

exceeding joy

today bought a translucent white case for my ipod mini. oh man... stuff at apple is so EX!!! i really really liked this other case that was leather, pale pink, with sakura blossoms embroidered on it... but it costs $79!!!! man... these people sure know how to make money... =(

but anyway i like my simple and classy case too. and it was way cheaper... my smart colleague suggested that i call it 'salt'! since i've decided to name my ipod 'pepper' =b hee hee... so cool yeah? salt & pepper!

it was a good day. had a great time of sharing and chilling out... and feel more rested for yet another busy week ahead.

here's a song that encouraged me a LOT today. the lyrics are beautiful. i love You.


* * *

I have found exceeding joy,

Jesus answered when I called

this Name that has saved me,

pure love that embraced me.


Mercy, grace, eternal life.

Bought from darkness to His light.

While lost in my sin, He

raised me and made me live.


Chorus:

My soul magnifies the Lord,

my heart joys in God my Saviour,

for He lifts the lowly,

He's done great things for me.

I will sing, praising evermore,

He is mighty and Holy is His Name.


I will lift my head up high,

praising Jesus through each trial.

Though I have not seen Him,

I love Him completely.

Saturday, March 05, 2005

thots for the day...

watching my pretty ipod load up now... *blink blink blink* yay...

ok i shall not gush about it too much =b looking at it also reminds me that i'm not supposed to buy any thing for the next two months that are not ABSOLUTELY necessary. so... friends, keep me accountable yeah? =) can shop but no buy.

so...

today went to the Gen12ii training, and met some of the students for the first time. =) it's really excited, cos i think every individual is so perfectly unique and special and important to this team! until today i felt like, ok it's TURT again =) but now it's like "omigosh, i can't wait for TURT to start!!! =D" kind... muahaha

we had a great session on support raising today. really felt convicted to step up my own support raising, and be more pro-active, and really so grateful and amazed at how He has provided thus far, in so many ways... yet the thought of having to raise close to $5000 one-time and $1000 monthly over the next few months is quite daunting... =b hmmm... but still, He will provide...

I was also reminded that what God really desires is our complete and utter trust in Him to provide our every need.

"Do not take along any gold or silver or copper in your belts; take no bag for the journey, or extra tunic, or sandals or a staff; for the worker is worth his keep."
Matthew 10:9-10

"And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19

it's going to be an incredible journey. =) the students newsletter is downloadable on the left bar... the staff one (for me) will be up sometime next week.

if any one you reading this would like to support our ministry or me personally, or The Ultimate Road Trip project - be it through prayer or finances - please leave me a comment. =)

Friday, March 04, 2005

oops... cannot upload my ppt...

... cos my transmit software (which i use to upload) is trial, so got 10min limit... and my file is too big. sob sob... ah well... =)

Thursday, March 03, 2005

yay!!!

wheeeeeee.... its over!!!

ok not in a thank-God-its-over-so-i-can-crawl-into-a-hole-over, but more like just 'thank-You-God-for-bringing-me-thru-over'. =)

it really wasn't as scary as i feared it would be. i mean, it really wasn't! =) really thank God for bringing me through.

sure i made mistakes... like not bringing the handout notes in front with me, so i wasn't clear on what to tell them to fill in the blanks. =b oops!

and one friend commented that my ending could have been more focused in application. heh... i guess i was hoping that it would be more of a catalyst message to get students to think about the basis on which they make decisions in general... so maybe i left it too open-ended?

heh heh

but overall, i could see that i was connecting with some students, and it really encouraged me and amazed me at how God uses us despite our mistakes to share what we are learning. =) so thank you everyone who was praying for me - i really really treasure your prayers!

if you're interested, the ppt is up for downloading on side bar to the left. =b eh heh heh

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

tomorrow is THE DAY

i'll be giving my very first devotional message tomorrow!!! *fanfare*

"God is Eternal - Living for Eternity"

heh heh heh

actually i'm feeling pretty okay about it. i mean, sure it's far from perfect and all, but i feel like, hey, at least i'm convicted about what i'll be sharing, and i feel like i've got a good grasp of the points that i'll be using. so.. overall feel glad about that, and trusting God to speak to the students who will be listening.

thank You God for this peace that i seem to have now, despite the little bursts of stress and unreasonable panic that 'attack' me now and then. i know that the night is in Your hands. =)

seems like i've got to live out the last point of my message in fact! it's HIS show anyway! heh

that's actually a FR mantra of sorts... but so applicable to me in this case. i really have to submit the results and expectations that i have to Him, and let Him 'run the show'.

so anyway... will upload my powerpoint up tomorrow night AFTER my message. for those interested to sneak a peek and comment. heh...

adios

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

heaven on the inside of me - and YOU!

hey hey =)

it's been a pretty happy day. had national staff meeting in the morning... the usual... ok lah =b hee hee

really enjoyed the message. it was on unity and team... and i was reminded of how we are all members of the same body, and none is inferior in any way or superior to the others. it really encouraged me a lot, and helped me remember that i need to love and cherish all the 'parts' that make up the body - at home, at work, at church etc...

also had a good checkout in the afternoon. really thank God for the time of practice i had last night, and it went quite smoothly. in fact, my mentor, joy, was pretty happy with it i think. just that maybe i can work on making it more conversational so that the students will identify more with my experiences and sharing. =)

so that was good.

i really feel happy these few days. it's a good thing, i know, but i hope i dun come back to earth with a bang anytime. heh heh =)

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i've got heaven on the inside of me

peave and joy, God has set me free

heaven is a reality

abundant life flows out of me

i've got a smile on my face

a glide in my stride

i'm tasting His grace

and walking by faith

i've got heaven on the inside of me

i've got heaven flowing out of me

i'm bringing heaven into this world


joy, joy, joy

i've got such joy in my heart!

peace, peace, peace

i've got such peace in my heart!

i remember the day it all began

it was the day that i was born again

an explosion took place on the inside of me

it was the Spirit of God setting me free!